:: adulthood ::

Adulthood will see many of us growing being ‘diplomatically-correct’ as we learn that relating to other adults is not as easy as we imagined.
It’s a process of discovering that you are just mere human and that when need arises; the evil side of you have to make an appearance - to keep you from being used or dismissed easily
Then again, you should in the first place believe in what you are doing and know that if you are the sort who heavily depend on rewards and perks, you will eventually find yourself becoming a victim of your own expectations.
It’s easy to lose your principles along this process as people start feeding you with their perceptions and as you are thrown to a sea of choices, you’d realize its easier to conform and follow conventions, rather than trying to be a unique individual with his/her own mind.
Yes, different people think differently but how often do we end up listening to what others say so as to be socially accepted by others and be comforted knowing the fact that, ‘hey, I’m not alone – someone thinks or feels like I do.’
As we try to practice our individuality, we subconsciously, are finding people like us as a make believe that we are in fact, normal.
.And even an optimistic being will agree that during adulthood, the meaning of trust is only idealistically defined in dictionaries. Adults have only themselves to trust for trusting yourself is the only gift you can provide for those whom you dearly loved.

Just last night, I was thinking about the future of the Islamic civilization if the Syiah and the Sunni unite in an effort to uphold justice and see to the poverty issues that had cost many families their faith and hope to live.
But you don’t have to go far to see how easy a society can crumble.
Within small institutions or organizations, we witness disparity factored by a strong need to pursue personal interest and naturally we forget that the essential element of communicating is to listen (It’s damn hard. I’ve tried).
I had my share of experience handling difficult individuals. (I may be that difficult individual myself) and PR skills are not something you learn overnight.
There are times when you wish you can be in isolation. Times when you rather be in solitude than face other humans. But to shun yourself away from society may not provide you with the experience of being surrounded by positive people who can guide you through this process of self-discovery.

And adulthood, I’ve discovered, is all about responsibility.
For your actions, your thoughts, your words, your opinions will not mean anything if you are unable to stand firm to what you believe in.
But to err is human. And we know, as much as we try – we do fall sometimes.

To think that just a few years ago, I can’t wait to claim the ‘freedom’ of being an adult.
Now, how I’d wish I am that little girl who has the time to play water bombs after school, who runs around at playgrounds and climb monkey bars, who has not much to worry except the fact that I have homework, who innocently believe that life is all about games, family, study and fun.

Oh well, life has to go on and who knows adulthood is not so bad after all.