:: as i lay my eyes on you ::

It feels good to let things off the chest once in awhile.
The man & I met for tea and we come clean to the things that have been clouding our minds.
How my irrationality had nearly cause him to snap back.
How his ego had nearly cause me to curse & rave.
Drawing lessons from past experiences, we knew how fragile a relationship is & how in the heat of anger, words that we didn't mean to utter can rob our one shot to happiness.
It's hard when you have two strong headed people trying to work things out without causing any emotional injury but the least we could do was try to rationalize the issue & make sure the same mistakes won't be a recurrent one.
Although the irony of it, through all these conflicts, you began to realize how much the other person truly means to you.
And that despite the many differences, a little compromising is all it takes to get things back on track.
Oh well, every couple has their moments.

In less than a week, the man will be posted to school.
If you had gone through a relationship long enough, you'd know each different phase demands a little readjustment. Studying is the period I'd call the 'honeymoon' phase when you have all the time in the world to spend that quality time with your intended.
Once you step into the working life, granted you have time but most of it will be spent either resting or doing your own stuffs.
I guess there's a reason why the older generation tells us 'Dah kerja, baru cari mataair.'
It redefines the meaning of relationship when you start to shoulder responsibilities.

As much as I'd like to tell the world how in love I am with man, it's never a complete happiness if you learn a friend whom you dearly love had Cupid's blind arrow shot her heart.
I pray for your well-being my dear.