:: balance ::

Magazines have now become my major distraction when it comes to revising.
The fact that the nose is running like a tap water is not helping either.
So casually putting the notes aside, I got my hands on the Oprah magazine - flipped through the pages and the eyes caught an interesting article on 'woman&career'.

Put two ambitious people together, will one have to take a back seat then in order to maintain a peaceful and happy relationship?

Most say you can't have it all.
My naive self think it's still quite possible -to juggle a career, a relationship, family and time for self (for now, that is).
Though there's a high likelihood of you sacrificing one dream for another.
I see myself as a dreamer - to achieve a personal legend that anchored my hope to be one of those you will deem as 'successful' (in the eyes of society).
But because a dreamer often bring him/herself to a realm of fantasy, she or he may take a little time to acknowledge that one of life's cruelest trick is that things don't just happen even if you have put 100 percent to it.
Success has a funny way of telling you to stop pushing yourself too hard, to at least slow down for a second and be thankful with the things you have been blessed with.

I realized my choice of partner has always been one who has other responsibilities to shoulder apart from me, who understands the term busy and work, who is equally a dreamer, who pushes me when I start doubting my abilities.
It's idealistic, I know.
Though this same man may not be at my beck & call 24/7. May have his organizer jam-packed with events and meetings. And I may not have the luxury to be sent and fetched as and when I want to.
This is when it hit me that a girl can't really have it all.

At this age, it seems like there's tons to do.
And most of us, I figure, already befriended our inner strength and accompanied by a newfound sense of self, we are much prepared to achieve our aims & goals.
This strong drive may appear individualistic at first but if you sit down and really give it some thought, you'd realized you are actually working to provide for your own next generation.
Though not without a personal satisfaction attached to it at the end of the journey.

I'd still think its possible to juggle everything.
If in your relationship, support and share are some of the things you place a high importance on.
The rewards may come in a bit later.
For the beauty of love will only manifest itself when you both can conquer the odds, can brave through the challenges, can trudge along the difficult path of life together and grow up as a stronger and wiser couple.

And time - has always been the best witness and judge to the beautiful/sad moments that unfolds when you least expect it.

My man, I never said this often.
But even in companiable silence, I know how much you mean to me.
Behind this masked independence, I trust your hands will be there for me to hold on tight when the going gets tough.

The question that always strike me,
'Is my point of view more important than my relationship?'
Because sometimes the 'lawyer' within us tends to make a courtroom out of a perfectly normal relationship. So often told to stand up for our right and beliefs, we forgot the best remedy is simply to shut up.

And I ....... have so much learning to do.

And less rambling (without doubt).
plus think less of the unnecessary.