:: Surviving ::

This past few days, Ive been running on auto-pilot.
Yesterday marks the end of a series of presentations that I needed to complete for this semester.
Luck was on my side after getting the first slots for the order of presentations.
It makes a whole lot of difference for the procrastinator me who tends to push her work until the very last minute.
Though the 'kick' of last minute moments is that inspirations, thoughts and ideas flow more fluidly than rare days when I decided to complete an assignment earlier than its due date.

Right now, without D.. I am sitting at my normal hideout for solitude.
Taking a break from piles of reading that makes no sense.
Tired of carrying out social responsibility. Being part of events that need constant exchange of opinions. The random 'hi-s' and 'bye-s'.
Have you ever wished for a day that you can be an invisible?
A day that allows you to take a peek into other people's life.
Are they really happy as they seem?
Honesty comes with a price.
And social responsibility, at one point of time, has taken its toll on me.
So, you may ask.
Why is she complaining if she is exercising her choice for active involvements?

For I am learning, adapting, getting use to the fact that its a dog-eat-dog world that we are living now. If in the past, its just a passing remark that I can brush off but now that I am part of the world where people play politics, where intentions can be misintepreted, where every action holds an underlying agenda, where sincerity only exists in dictionaries, I can't help but feel that its indeed a cruel society; detrimental to those who lacks confidence, self-esteem or even hope to live.
If you remembered the reality show, Survivor.
Where the good ones are often voted out earlier in the game.
Where the bad ones come together to eliminate the true survivor.
Where the winner has their own share of backstabbing and lying.
Yup, its the game many of us are playing in this working world.

The difference is we are in a different jungle.
And the enemy that can cause our downfall lies not only within ourselves but the environment that we put our trust in.

I have to get back to my social obligations.
Its lunch. And survivors need to eat. :)