:: try ::

A short schoolday today.
Somehow this semester seems less stressful than the previous one.
Maybe because one of our nutty professors are taking 3 of our modules plus the fact that D and I were lucky enough to complete our major presentations in the earlier week.

Managed to squeeze in a chat with Papa Pitch and one my juniors during lunchtime.
Now that the next issue of Voices is three quarter completed, Im carrying another responsibility - this time with a bigger organization.
While Im still excited about the new position (and the role I have to play), deep down the fear of not being able to perform my responsibilities still resides.
I constantly face that problem.
Where opportunities came knocking and I refuse to accept any of them because of the rooted fear.
Fear of what? Im not quite sure actually.
Like I was telling D, we 'humbled' ourselves too much.
We still think we are inexperienced.
We still feel we are the 17 yr old girls who jumped at every chance granted with little knowledge of our own potential.
We still believe we lack the angst, the gusto or whatever they called it.
But somehow it dawned on me, that the opportunities that came by weren't mere luck.
We are recognized for our effort.
This is not a place to boost my ego or showcase my confidence in public.
Its just a realization that all along fear was preventing me from moving out of my comfort zone.
No one can spell perfection.
There's not even a guarantee of success even if you are good at something.
Ive learnt to try, and I dont intend to stop.

D and I have gone through that learning stage, now its time we contribute.
Often time, we talked about obligations.
How difficult it was for women to climb the ladder of success esp. if family is our main priority.
We knew we can never be a Superwoman.
But we will try.

It all stems from dreams, right?