:: My choice ::

Geng, if you are reading this - Im free on Saturday afternoon.
Because the semangat me had decided to book theory lessons back to back on a Saturday morning.
Pandai la tu.
Geng, if you must know Ive been reading your blogs religiously.
So Mary, here wishing Omar a happy belated birthday. 29 se. ahhaha.....
Kak Fard, hows the pregnancy going? Im hoping all is well for you.
Rai. Stay away from me at the moment. Heee. Because you'll get bored looking at my cute face five days a week (minimum 2 hrs a day) when school term starts in two weeks time.
Aida. You got my new number but I dont receive any messages. Dont invite me to your wedding. Invite me to your baby shower can, so I'll know you are a confirmed married women.

Finz. Whens our next lunch date? Ive not completed Pitch's work if u must know. Hee.
Ain. Saturday night amacam, just you and me? Muakekeke. Romantic eh spend saturday nights dgn girlfriend.

Well, as for me.
My days have gone from pretty alright to pretty frightening to pretty exciting to pretty saddening.
I think Im no longer on an emotional roller-coaster ride.
Ive switched to emotional bungee jump. Lol. Corny sia.
Often when I sat down to reflect upon my choices (particularly choices in men), I realised Im upright dump or blind.
Put it this way. I cant have someone who is predictable and safe and clingy and dependent.
Then I chose the opposite.
Someone unpredictable and unsafe and independent. It didnt backfire.
It shaped me to become a woman who could eat her lunch alone in the coffeeshop (ending up with some nyonya strangers), a woman who could as and when switched her attachment button to suit the occassions, a woman who understand that male creatures are all the same (the only diff. is self-control), a woman who is treasuring the precious assets in life - God, the family and good friends).

I think your choice is your greatest influence.
Because you grew up with it. Adapted to it. Practised it.
You can never tell if you had changed. Though deep down inside you knew the old you had gone for a mini makeover. You just hate to admit the change. Change is what many people avoid. Leaving the comfort zone, the familiarity.

I am getting older but none the wiser.
Judging by the long ramble, I think you knew Im having a very long free time. Heeee