:: Thinking, not feeling ::

Sometimes even confidence and strength stopped working.
The saddest realization, the most heart wrenching moments for a woman is when she was told abt the agony her bf went thru in d rela. from another woman.
That to me is still forgivable.
The only one thing she could not forgive is she was there by his side all this while but had never been the source of his emotional support.
Even as she dug deeper to understand, she couldnt for it had never been awhile. Kept in silence by the self-proclaimed bf in distress.
She had never been good with emotions but she knows shes getting better.

She loves her man the same even if her wrongdoings were reflected through his eyes.
She wouldnt mind being judged bcoz she knows human make bad judgments and so was she.
She only wanted to be good in his eyes, she knew she could be if only it was permitted.

But the one thing she never did, confide in another man about her sobbing story.
She is indeed a good actress, masked by a persona whom she couldnt even recognize.
And the other women were never to blame. In fact, I am thankful for the emotional support all of you had offered for a man in distress. I would have done the same. :)