new hair colour at colour house.
red earth products.
equals to BROKE.

having a little emotional roller coaster ride, now.
for all the things that i hated bt him, i'm trying to think abt the things i like abt him.
gosh...
always thought i had a different male species for a partner.
d one who hibernates in d cave and refused to go out.
i'm complaining because i'm in a foul mood.
if i am in a rational mood, which is not so often, i dont really mind what hes up to.
so long i know where he goes.
but ryt now i'm fuming mad.
u see smoke coming out of my head.
yup dats hw mad i am.
because i dun haf a partner who wants to go out wit me.
....Sob..Sob..Sob..

truth be told, am getting used to it.
it reminded me of an article i cme across a week ago.
about dis lady often left alone by her husband who often goes for business trips.
d first few years of marriage was indeed a challenge.
u know how women cn get so emotional wen they dun receive attention frm their partner. n u noe wen u r emotional, d devil tends to make u think of even worse scenarios and it doesnt help much if you have friends who try to poison your mind with negative assumptions.
so she said everything is about facing that emotion.
and doing something useful out of the situation.
am indeed impressed.
but it take years to develop that kind of security and confidence in oneself.
and even then, der will be times the feeling of depression just come to haunt you.
so i learnt some useful things.

1) Its not right to compare. My bf is different from my friends' bfs.
2) Try remembering why we got into a relationship in d first place.
3) The feeling of depression will not prolong unless i permit it.
4) Never assume.. Well,well.
5) Spend time wit your friends.

I feel much much better.
Though today I still am unhappy!!
Hmmph.